Thanks so much FireDragon - it is very kind of you to reply. You make a good point re: previous times when i thought one thing, and it turned out different than i expected. I guess there is a part of me that knows that i will survive, but the thought of going through the next weeks and months is not very appealing. I think through all of this, the one thing that i hadn't really thought about, was that i would be losing my best friend. And that was a hard thing to swallow. And i don't want to believe that my H has been lying to me for weeks and months. So, i have to keep reminding myself that he did love me, maybe still does, but just can't be with me...sometimes love just ain't enough. This whole thing is just a nightmare, and i wish divorce was never invented!
