Thank you c1t - i appreciate your feedback. I know that you are right. But, i just feel so awful. And detaching will be so difficult for me. I am not even sure that it matters anymore. I have been DBing in an effort to save my M...it obviously didn't help. I feel defeated.
I kept hoping that my H would sort himself out. But, we've been separated for 15 months now...i don't know how much more time he needs. And i don't know if it matters.
I will try to do as you suggested. Thank you for taking the time to respond.