Hope- Keep me updated if you do speak with your H tomorrow...i will be thinking about you.
And definitely book a massage for yourself some place...they are great!
Hope, you need to do what you feel is right for you, both in your heart and in your head, when you are ready. If you are not ready to file, then don't do it. Be true to yourself and what you want. That being said, you also have to let your H fall on his face and pick himself back up, as hard as that is. I know that you are hurting, both for yourself and for him. But, he is an adult and his actions got him into this mess. Now, he is going to have to face the consequences and deal with the repurcussions. As much as you care for him, he won't allow himself to feel it or accept it, for whatever reason. He seems to be fighting a lot of demons, that were probably there long before you 2 even met.
Thank you for saying that you see a lot of positives in my sitch. I do too, but i sometimes wonder if i just see what i want to see. I don't want to go along, thinking there still is a chance, and then by blindsided when i receive D papers. And what makes it especially hard now is the things that the psychic said to me the other night. She really made me question so many things, and i wonder if he ever loved me and what his intentions/motives are now. Maybe she was just picking up on the doubts that i have had over the past few years since all of this drama started...i don't know. I am going to see another one (yes, i am a glutton for punishment) and see what she has to say.
My heart does ache for you hope - i wish you didn't have to go through this. But remember the support you have here. I also wanted to say that i know how hard it was for you to start calling about apartments...i started looking yesterday as well, but i haven't made any calls yet. Where are you planning on going?
We still have to try to get together one day..that would be fun.
