I just got locked so I thought it was time I moved out of MLC category over to D but not Done.
I also think that maybe the lock monster is trying to tell me that I should not only be finished with the MLC forum, but to be finished with MLC altogether.
I have tried for 10 months now to deal with it....but I don't see one bit of progress. When H walked out of our home in May, he said he was done! And nothing I have tried has changed his mind. He is still angry, still with OW, still acting very weird, and still determined to get a D.
So I join this forum with a heavy heart at not being able to get my M back on track, but with the knowledge that I have tried just about everything I can to make our M work.
I do, however, know that I am a much better person for having tried and I thank everyone in the MLC forum for support and encouragement. I don't really think it matters WHERE you post on these boards.....Just because I am in the midst of a D, doesn't mean I don't have to deal with H's MLC anymore. It just means that I have finally shifted to working on me 90 percent of the time instead of splitting time between H and myself. I also have resolved that this M isn't going to work.
I kind of compare it to "shifting your weight from foot to foot while you are waiting in a long line" First 3/4 of your weight is on your right leg, then you shift to your left, and so forth.
And I guess after this long, the shift feels right. I am road-weary, and just like pounding your head into a brick wall.....it feels so good when you stop!
Besides, now that the battle of L's is on....I need my energy to go into making the D settlement as good as I can for D15 and I. It's our future at stake and as long as H does not want to compromise, I will fight.
I hope to continue my friendship with everyone I met on the MLC boards and meet new friends who can help me on my way through the D process.
