You are doing all the right things in my humble opinion and have a great great attitude!! Recognize the baby steps and look at this over a longer term...even though I was blessed with my sitch going from complete and utter darkness to, it seems, blazing light in a matter of a little over a week, my impatience got to me at times and I had to ask myself if I was better off than I was a couple of weeks back...there will be days where you will have a setback but when you look at the longer term and see the overall positive momentum you have it will serve to carry you through the hard times and keep your resolve and focus where it should be...sometimes the only progress you will have will be you busy GAL, continuing to detach and getting right with your Maker...and that is fine because it is all positive...
The way your W seems to be sticking her neck out from around the corner to peak at you, the way her family so warmly received you combined with all you are doing I feel gives you a very good shot at reconciling...you have to free yourself of all anxiety and your W will absolutely feel it...you really seem to be embracing your faith and there is NOTHING that will be more powerful for ridding yourself of your anxiety than getting right with God - ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!! I think the turning point for me was when I sat down with a pastor of another Christian faith who I know through business...I was probably at my anxiety high in the middle of December and this incident is probably on my first thread...he took a real interest in helping me that day...sat down with me for about two hours and went through verse after verse after verse...he made me realize loud and clear that I will never be alone if I have Him in my heart and totally embrace and accept Him...nothing gets rid of anxiety more than coming to this realization...
The Joel Osteen daily journal is something I would like to hear more of...I started to read his book and got through the first third of it and then picked up something else...I found his book to be spiritually exhilirating and freeing!! I DVR his weekly show and it serves to keep me spiritually centered...my wife took Joel Osteen's book with her on her trip this week...she was excited to get through it after she heard one of his sermons the other night on Getting to the Root of Your Problems...the man is just inspirational...Joel Osteen is coming to Tampa on December 1st and my W and I plan to be there...I dont know why I didnt mention him before now because he has been an important part of my journey...
Hang in there One Wish...you are getting strong and right...it is a process but realize how courageous your wife's heart is and how much she loves you to take that peak out at you after the way her heart has been hurt...honor her love and her heart and keep on making your genuine improvements...you should still detach but something tells me you wont have to detach for long...I truly think in my gut your wife is seeking and wants to be back as a family...she just needs to know it is safe and it will happen at her pace and not yours...keep that in mind...
God Bless you One Wish...when it happens according to His plan it will be the most glorious and everlasting way for it to happen and not some half-a#@ed patched up M which will just lead to this misery again...I truly believe this with all my heart...hang in there and keep doing what you are doing...
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