My W and I spent nearly the whole weekend together...Friday night she stayed over till late...didnt even think I was going to see her that night...Saturday afternoon, we took my StepD15 shopping...first time I had seen her in months...my W wants to ease her into seeing me...she is the only one that is not sold on this reconciliation it seems...my StepS16 and I spend time together and have also hung very easily together...just dropped him off at the townhouse where they are now after we sat and watch a DVD...my StepS is definitely warm to me and always says ILY to me in a very comfortable way...he is just dying to have a good male role model in his life...my StepD will come around eventually...she is just cautiously eyeing this whole thing...my W has told me that for her daughter it is all about her seeing her mother happy and once she is convinced that this is happiness that is permanent and can be trusted she will fall in...I have no doubt...
Saturday night was wonderful...we started with dinner then a movie, Big Momma 2, and then had a wonderful time at a jazz/martini bar...the band was really good, the sax was jamming, we drank pretty well and danced our butts off...my W had slyly made sure the kids were staying over at friend's house and we came back here to the house and ML...it was incredible the way this is all happening...it is real but it is so good that it is almost surreal...my W has latched onto every concept it seems that makes a good marriage...oh check this out, Friday night when she was over, she went into my jewelry box and swiped my wedding ring...when I picked her up Saturday to go out and she had her wedding ring on and when I said I had to go back to the house to pick mine up she pulled out my ring and put it on my hand...this woman is the best and most romantic a guy could have!! She said that she wanted to go out that night and have everyone know that we are married and belong to each other...I still dont really call her but like I said in a previous post, I probably wouldnt have the chance to call her because she is calling me all the time or wants to see me...it is incredible!!
Today was another joyful series of events...my StepD15 apparently lost her cellphone and some kid found it...my W called up all distressed because she didnt know where the kid was that found it and was very uneasy just hopping into the car and making about a half hour drive to meet someone on her own...she asked me to go with her...I was glad to do it...we came back after retrieving the cellphone and laid down on the couch together and watched "The Five People You Meet When You Get to Heaven"...I wound up falling asleep with her in my arms but for those who saw it there is a part where one of the five people that the main character meets is his wife who had passed away years ago...when I woke up my wife was crying and it was over that whole scene and she went on about how much love that couple shared and how the widowed man could never have a love again after his wife passed...my W told me she feels the same way about me and can never love another forever the way she loves me...I am happily dumbfounded...I really am...
The topper of the whole weekend was when we went to evening mass...there was a ceremony emptying out when we got there...well, who walks out of that ceremony and literally bangs right into us in the main aisle of the church was none other than my W's best or maybe former best friend who also doubles as my ex W...geesh...well, I hugged her and said hello but she looked like she was almost in tears...the woman has stated that she is not in favor of my W and I reconciling...her problem I guess...my W told her a few days ago that anyone who doesnt support our M from here on in is out of our life...
Mind you, this was the first time in four months I have been to church with my W...well, during the homily, the priest presiding over the mass makes an announcement that today was Worldwide Marriage Day and he asked all married couples to stand so he could bless the marriage!!! We held each other so tight at that point when we stood...I cant believe all that is happening in an almost divine way...for instance, the date this whole process really took hold was February 6th, last Monday...at that point there was definitely no looking back...my W had decided that she was going to counseling and Retrouvaille and commited to making this marriage work and it has been nothing but bliss since then without a single misstep of word and deed since...my W knows I have a deep spiritual connection to my deceased father and often in prayer I ask for him to intercede in my life and I believe he has done this enough to make me still pray to him often especially during times of crisis...well, guess what last Monday, February 6th was?? the eleventh anniversary of his passing!! if this all wasnt so good I would think it is spooky the way all these signs and coincidences are happening...I should start really writing these things down because it is happening two or three times a day...my wife is big on signs and spirituality and she is grabbing hold of everyone of them...
Women are amazingly intuitive creatures...men, dont EVER think you can EVER put something over on your lady...I asked my W what is the sense she has that I am different and that she feels comfortable and can trust me...she told me today that it is the just the look in my eyes and how I touch her...she says she feels how deeply I love her just from my look and touch...incredible!!
My W is going to Iowa tomorrow for six days...my W has told me a few times this weekend how much she will miss me...I told her to focus on her sister and the operation she is going through...her family needs her now for her support...I told her that I will miss her too but now that she is totally and absolutely emotionally present with me at all times I will be with her as she is with me...my missing her will be longing for her rather than a needy or a selfish feeling when your spouse is not there with you because have not been emotionally fed and nourished...it is a oneness that we now both feel is essential to a solid M...
Well, tomorrow starts a new day and new opportunities...I had my last cigarette twenty four hours ago...6AM tomorrow I start working out again five days a week...starting off with a trainer to kick things off and get into high gear...really going to get healthy now...my W, who also stopped smoking five weeks ago, said that we better stay healthy because we better plan on having a very long life together of happiness...she is always talking about the future now...
You couldnt find this stuff in a movie...I dont know what to say except I am in awe and humbled...I am telling you people...truly truly detach, GAL and ask your Maker for help...and once your prayers have been answered never take it for granted again!!
God Bless to all and stay strong!!
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