I have been keeping up with your sitch and I am really glad you are going to do what you need to do, mainly see a C, to take care of yourself.
Maybe my H. needs to hear me tell him that I love him, that I forgive him for what has happened and that I believe in us, despite what took place.
I think we all struggle with this belief but I have no idea if it's true of your H or my W. It would seem like they would need to hear this since we are constantly told that their guilt can be huge factor in them not returning. I know for me personally, getting a chance to express those things to my W is the major motivating factor in me wanting to talk to her about R and OM. I think you wanting to tell him those things is in keeping with your general desire to do all you can to save your marriage. The only question I have is this; do you think he doesn't know you love him and would forgive him just based on what he's observed from you? That is not a rhetorical question. I know that it has been suggested to us that we need only say certain things once and the message will be heard. You have, through your actions (and words too), been telling him that you still love him and want there to be an "us" in the future. Just be careful not to let this become another thing that looks needy. I know it comes from a good place, as does everything about you in this sitch, but remember, our WAS sometimes misinterpret these things into their own twisted reality. Stay strong and I really think your therapist can help. Make sure you go ASAP.
