There are things in life that, when they are happening, do not make any sense. But, i do believe that there is a reason behind everything. And we might not be able to recognize the reason immediately, but i do believe that one day, it will become clear to us. There is no doubt that life is full of heartaches. But without the heartache, how could we really appreciate the happiness? Last night, i spoke with someone about this sitch, and she told me that i should stop blaming myself for my current situation b/c i don't have that much power to have caused if. B/c if i did, i would have had just as much power to fix it. And she is right.
I don't consider myself a religious person, but I do believe sometimes we just have to let things go and rely that some higher power, call it God, call it fate, call it what you like, will guide what is meant to be. I think that is how you start to drop the rope. You just trust that when you let go things will be OK. It's scary and it's hard to let go but hell, wasn't getting married a little scary too.
