Imdi, Thanks again. I certainly hope that your situation is going along better than mine. I wish you all the best as you stand for your marriage, too. I am trying to read up on divorce laws in my state; the Internet does seem to offer quite a bit of information. It’s not easy to do; I don’t even want to have to inform myself of something I don’t want to go through with. But, I’m trying to be prepared.
One of the things I feel such a loss for is the friendship/companionship that H. & I shared. After being together for so long, we really understood each other; we would laugh over funny movies together, talk about our day, go places together. All these things that we so enjoyed over all the years are things I deeply miss. At one time, we were truly each other’s best friend. Sometimes I sit back and don’t understand what happened to us.
I guess the truth is that I still have this visceral feeling that there is a part of H. that is still the man that treated me with love and kindness, and that together, we could start over and make a better go of it. I don’t know why I can’t accept anything else.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
