Keep hanging in there. You don't file until you feel it's something YOU want to do. If he wants the D, then he can file. Actually, I don't think you should file because you're not ready and it's not as though you're ready to start another R, so don't file. Also, by staying M at this point you will still have insurance (I assume) which is something you need. I don't see why you have to hurry with the legality of the stitch - just start healing yourself and stop worrying about him. You can't heal him, only he can.
