I don’t really have much new to report; we had no contact yesterday. My sister thinks he is probably ashamed and shocked right now, that all of this is coming out. I did call the area that I would most likely be moving to and I spoke to the apt. management at a place I am familiar with. They are sending me some info. about available units. Since this looks like we are going to get a D. and I know we will sell the house, I need to figure out where I will live.
Every little detail is such a sad step to take. I don’t think H. even realizes how hard this is for me. He only sees himself being closed in by all the problems he’s created. He doesn’t understand how difficult this is for anyone but himself. I do realize H. has a huge mess he has to come to terms with and I am sorry for that. Even after he told me the other night, one of the first things I said to him was, “What can I do to help you, H?” but he said there was nothing I could do.
The fact remains that I still don’t want a divorce. I just don’t see how dragging it out is going to change H’s mind. I know he wants it. He just doesn’t want to be the “bad guy” to file. What can a LBS do in this case? Is there any hope at all for my situation? I really need some honest opinions right now.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
