Again, hugs to you and a shoulder to cry on. I was going to post this earlier but NYs beat me to it. It might do you a world of good to seek out a therapist right now. You have been knocked with a load of #@*#@##!!!! on top of the ten months or so of agony you've already lived through. A therapist might be able to help you steer through this. Please use the number NYs has given you.
