Thank you for being supportive. I am having such a terrible time, realizing that all these months I thought H. was just going through something; that he had an affair because he was stressed out about work, or what have you. But it’s been so much more complicated than I ever thought and he’s continued to keep the façade going. Maybe when we meet to talk, I will finally get some real answers that make sense. What is so hard is letting all the dreams die. I always thought I would be with H. into our later years, and of course as any wife does, I had so many hopes for us. I will miss the life we were sharing together and it will be very hard to get over it and move on.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
