Ugh! Here's a hug, Hope. Funny, I never realized before that "hug" and "ugh" used the same letters.
You have every right to be angry at H, yet anger at yourself comes by way of you thinking you were a fool and feeling humiliated. You weren't a fool, it's more that H was adept at hiding his actions and having you believe otherwise. He is the one that acted truly foolish all that time and he is the one that should be feeling humiliated.
Instead he's twisting in the wind of his own making.
I yelled at him, told him that I didn't deserve any of this, that I had been nothing but a loving, supportive wife to him and all he'd done is disrespect me, put my health in jeopardy, and use me. He got mad and said, "You haven't changed a bit." and hung up on me.
Nice, how he tries to turn the blame around. He just can't face himself and hear the truth and cope with it. He VERY MUCH DID put your life in jeopardy all that time, and IMPREGNATING or even possibly impregnating another woman while married, are such irresponsible acts that his attempt to use the pointing out of those facts, and your understandable reaction to these revelations, as an excuse to justify himself now ("You haven't changed a bit") just shows you how warped his reasoning process has to be.
In fact, everything he says is warped.
This is an ugly chapter in your life, I'm sorry. It's not of your making; you didn't choose this. It's all about him. Small comfort right now, I know. But it's true.
I'll be around tonight, if you need to talk, you know where you can get my number.
