Ebb & Flow

[hopefloats7]

I’ll try to type a little more.
H. said that late last summer, he got o.w. pregnant again before he left to go away on a month long work related trip. I did not know this. He left thinking this was true. He told me she is not pregnant now, but miscarried when he got back. He had made sure she would have been taken care of w/life insurance if anything had happened to him while he was away. I find it very odd, the timing of this around his trip. That is of course if he is telling me the truth. I again asked him how he knew this was his; he said he did because this was when they were in their relationship. He said he did go to the dr. with her. I don’t know what to believe at this point.
What I can’t help but wonder is how many others he’s been with. It’s very painful and overwhelming. I do not think there is any way I can be with him again. The strange thing is at the end of this conversation last night, I told him that he should go be with her, and do the right thing. He said he does not want to marry her. Their R. has ended. And, that he had a lot of thinking to do about us. I asked him if he felt better that he had told me the truth, and he said yes. (although earlier he was freaked out with what I was going to go do with this information).