Okay. But as of this VERY moment, your M is of no value. But Hope that doesn't mean that won't change in 5 minutes, 1 hour or a week or year from now. We are dealing with what we have right now, today. Today it's not what he wants. You need to give him what he wants. That is what they call unconditional love. Even though it hurts us, to let them go is the greatest show of our love for them that we can possible give. It's the giving of ourselves, letting go of our wants and desires in the hope that perhaps one day they will find their way back to us, and be willing to accept that we may not be the one for them.
I understand your thought process here, if you go dark then he can't see what the changes that you are ready to put into place for him to come back. What are those changes. You keep mentioning the financial issues, what about personal issues. Or was it always about the money for him? However, in looking at the big picture from a healthy standpoint, again expecting the worst, hoping for the best, what happens Hope if he doesn't come home? How have you moved forward in your life to prepare you for this...and I am not talking about the financial aspects? I remember a few months back, a karate class or something like that. Did you ever sign up? I know you've bought a few trinkets for your self, but forget the materialistic stuff...emotionally what have you done to move forward with your life in case he doesn't come home? He's in no shape to come home, I think we can both agree on this. How are you stronger for him now so that you can be for him when/if he does come home?
He's not unhappy with you, he's unhappy with himself!!! He doesn't know what to do, think or feel. He continues to work against all the love that you have in your heart for him. He has done several things on several occasions to help push you away from him. But dammit woman, you have the love of a thousand women for this man, don't think for a minute he doesn't know that. He just doesn't feel worthy, and to be quite honest, personally I am wondering just HOW worthy he is of you!! He's got one of the most loving women in the world, waiting for him...he's putting her through absolute freaking hell...hmmm. can I just go smack him real quick and be done with it? Okay, I know, I know that won't do anything...but oh well...
