I don't think it's the house. In fact, H. doesn't want to sell it at all. I think what he would love is for me to throw up my hands, leave and let him buy me out. He would love to live here...alone. I think it's just me. He is convinced he cannot be happy with me. I am not perfect believe me, but I just can't see what awful, terrible things happened that I caused that have caused memories that keep him from trying. If anything, it's the lying and cheating that went on by HIM that are the bad memories. I don't know what to do. I would love to ask him to come over to talk. I feel like I need to act now, do something, before he actually gets his own apt. or hooks up with another o.w. This feels like a window of opportunity. I want to ask him to come over and talk with me this weekend, but I don't know if that is a good idea either. I can't push him to do something he doesn't want to do, but I feel like he isn't understanding that our R. would be very different than it was. He does NOT seem to understand that, or believe it. I know things would need to be handled differently but he isn't giving me the chance to show him that things could be better.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
