It seems like at least frame-of-mind-wise, our W's may be in similar places. My W has not even come close to the contrition of yours' but her actions bely something. I really think YOU need to use this weekend to work your own confusion and feeling out. You should find a way to set some personal goals and a plan to achieve them. Your W is giving you every chance in the world to demonstrate your "new self" to her. She may be at the point where she is mentally convinced that you are the one, but her heart is still confusing the issue. Now may be the time to make sure you let her know you love and forgive her. One thing that helped me the past few days is that I started thinking of my W as a woman I was really interested in, not my wife. I also realized that I had self esteem issues all our R and it prevented me from having confidence with things like initiating kissing, cuddling, etc. Sex was fine, but much of the time, it was not intimate, make sense? Not much kissing, etc. So I am just approaching this like I am courting my W. Like any other woman I would court, I do not expect sex just because I hug her. I don't expect to kiss her even though I am pretty sure she may be ok with it. I am acting like a confident man who knows what he wants but is secure enough to wait for it and at ALL times behaves with respect. That was a big issue with me. Too much a$$ slapping and not enough sincere affection...sorry, enough about me...
So for you, this weekend can be a GREAT time for you to start some growth. I really believe you are in one of the best positions of all of us to make things better ASAP. The only thing standing in the way of that seems to be you and I have confidence that you will soon be able to see how to get out of your own way.
