Flew into Country X on Friday evening. H came to the airport to pick me up with the driver. Had some R talks in the car. H basically told me that he felt that he is "happier with ow". I then asked "why do you ask me over then?"
Felt that throughout the trip, H was pulling a DBING on me. He kept on saying that "you can't expect me to bounce back to before instantaneously, right?" or "You said that I have to get through this" or "you said that we have to work on it" or "why can't you be normal and show me that I have something to come back to instead of fighting?".
Anyway, Don’t know if it was good trip or what… Overall, H was as usual, very sweet and nice when we didn’t talk about ow, our Marriage or our R etc.
Took me to the mall, ask me to go for hair wash and manicure and pedicure. He actually sat there and waited for me. He took food for me when we went out for meals, made sure bath water was the "right" temperature for me...*sigh*
But we also fought like hell yesterday (Sunday) . I actually PUNCHED him.
He said that I gave him NO choice but to come back to the family, blah blah blah..
Anyway, he also said that he will enroll the boys at the international school blah blah balh.
Well, all I have been hearing for the last 12 months is talk talk talk. But on the other hand, I also really scared if he really DID enroll the boys in the school. He showed me his boss’ house, which he said he had booked for September. Said that he will enroll the boys for start of school in August. We move in July with minimal stuff, then only ship furniture when the boss vacates the house in September. I don’t know lah… But I was really really mad yesterday AM. Screamed so loud at him…Now I have got a sore throat.
Anyway, we “made-up” after the screaming/punching match and went out lunch together.
Aiya, don’t know....will see….. feel that I have no choice. Either I can just go on like this forever??? Or if he does do something, then I would have to move ?? I am rather scared. If I want to preserve the family, I don’t have much choice. And I know my parents will not be happy too….. I am stuck. Anyway, no point thinking about it now. Wait till he really does something first
And this morning... I texted him "Not nagging...but do you realize that once the boys are in the International School, they can't get back to the local schools?" H replied "Then we don't come back home. Easy as that."
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