Monday...nothing much... H IMed me in the afternoon. Short IM session. Later, I texted him about some supporting documents for his taxes. He replied. Later, he called to talk to boys. S8.5 didn't really talk as he was engrossed with his TV and so S6 spoke to him, then on his own accord, I heard S6 say "mommy is not here. She is upstairs, and I am lazy to go get her" and H said "go and get her". S6 " but I am lazy". To that, I was laughing my head off already, and took the phone from S6 and spoke to H. He chatted abit ..about me confiscating the boys' PS2 controllers so that they are not able to play the games during school days..blah blah... Told H about "micro-injuries" and he laughed at my "over-protectiveness" of the boys. Anyway, more convo and he said "why are you such a good girl these days, not arguing with me? Not that I am complaining" I said "no PMS yet?? One more week, and probably it'll start again". H chuckled "oh...in that case, I better enjoy it while I can.."
Anyway, later that night,...I sent him a short text to tell him that I was gonna go to bed and wished him good night. He texted back "Nite nite hottie".....
So, there goes another day of limbo.... Have not been posting much in others' threads as I am not sure if I can offer good advice... Am in this sitch for one year now and yet there is NO REAL BIG steps. Sure, there are some positives,...baby steps I guessed. Perhaps I need to write it down to keep me motivated to continue with this limbo sh!t.
* He says he wants me and the family * He says he will sort out with ow * He calls me everyday to see how I am * He IS staying in the house when he is back * He wants to do things as a family * He wants me to feel positive, and not keep on talking about D * He tells me that he enjoys talking to me * He tells me that I am his wife and friend * He tells me that he finds me attractive * He tells me that he still loves me
Hopefully, I can be focused on the baby steps?? At the back of my head, a little voice is telling me "then, what the f#@k is he still with ow??" and all this TALK AND TALK AND TALK and NO ACTION???? Okay..okay..time to put all these thoughts away in a little box, and throw the box into the garbage chute!!! Focus! Focus! Focus on the baby steps. Also, I need to detach more and be happy for myself.... and I think I am okay for the last few weeks...hopefully, the next pMS won't screw my emotions up again. Need to pop those evening primrose pills!!!
