hellkat/ kdk - thanks sistas... yes, agree that I shouldn't file the papers. THese WAS are really a whole confused lot. After our fighting match on Sunday, there were some text exchanges between H and I later in the night as S8 was ill and he wanted to know how he was. And think he spoke to the boys (boys stayed over with grandma as I had to travel out-of-town for work on Monday) and then reverted with a text to tell me what the boys said. I ignored his text. Then later, I was on the phone with my gf when he called my mobile. I asked my gf if I should answer it and she said "no... no". He called again and I let it go on the voicemail. Then later, he called my house phone. I was sort of asleep and so was rather unfriendly to him. He said he tried calling but was engaged. Kept it real short. Told him that I needed to sleep now.

Next morning (Monday), got a text from H "Just read your emails. Like I said, I'll come back to the family. We always do. I just need the time and space to do it right. All will be well, and I still love you and the boys lots. Don't waste the 500 bucks". I ignored this text.
Later in the afternoon, he texted again with "how is S8?". I didn't reply. Then he called me and asked why I didn't reply to his text. I just answered gruffly that I was driving...and driving the whole day. When I got home after a long long day of driving, I heard my house phone ring. I couldn't answer it on time. Then my mobile rang. Let it go to vm. It rang again later..and I picked it up and told him that I don't wanna talk to him, I am tired of listening. I don't want to be lied to again blah blah blah. The idiot had the cheek to ask me "Is your period here yet?". Told him that it doesn't matter...cause it's not because of my PMS. I was rather cold to him and he answered as usual "okay, I won't call you until I sort it out".

Next morning (today, Tuesday). Got a text from H at 6.40 am. Woke me up with the stupid beep from the phone "Jet lagged...Can't sleep. Thinking about alot of things. I know you don't wanna know...but I have [censored] and dreaming about [censored] you". Ignored the stupid text. Then about ten minutes later. My house phone called. And again, he was all sweet and nice with "How are you doing blah blah blah". Told him again that I don't wannat speak to him blah blah blah... We had quite a long convo.
Me: I don't think we should have small talk. I mean we are separated. What is the point of small talk. Kids know now and I don't care anymore. Like I said, if you wanna call to talk to the boys, go ahead. And I won't stop them from seeing you.
H: It's not about the kids anymore. I want to be with you.
Me: You are saying that because you want to get into my pants.. so that you can have two women.
H: it's not about s@x. Why do you keep on saying that.
Blah balh balh.
H: I will sort it out. ... I said I will.
Me: I've heard that one year already. What makes this time different?
H: You are right! You are right (is he DBING me???) I have to sort it out soon because No.1) you wanting to talk to her is pushing me and No.2) I don't want you to be with other guys. (oh.. earlier in our convo, he ask me about my nite out the other day. who chatted me up blah blah blah. I also told him that my dad said to me "have a few affairs of your own!"... he he he .. I also told him that as the kids know now..and that I really love a man on me and I am NOT gonna wait for him. Besides, he did say "I didn't ask you to wait for me" on Sunday)
Again, he said he will sort it out. Ended the call. He called again ten minutes later. I picked up and asked him to stop calling. He called immediately again. And somehow, I am ashamed to say that we ended up having phone s@x sh!t!! *sigh* This is starting all over again. Now he is happily twirling two women round his fingers again. ...I really need to have stronger willpower. I have to revert back to ZERO. It's quite difficult to have zero contact though...with me wanting his $$$. He just texted me to find out if I've received the $$. I have respond, correct??

Trying to keep a low profile...