KDK/ Kismet - Thanks for your advice. Yes, I think I need to row my boat towards a different direction. I have thought about it and think that I should really drop the rope. I will stay away from him. I did think of staying with a friend when he comes back to see the boys. I won't tell him so, just let him come back and see that I am not around. Yes, I agree that he wants to have his cake and eat it too. By end of this month, it would be a full 12 months of "sorting" out. If he can't leave ow, I supposed then I have to "leave" him.
Another thing that is complicating things ....I know I am silly, but lately have been thinking of having a girl (I have 2 boys...) and even thought of going to a sperm bank and all. LOL...but then thought maybe I could get H to "donate" the sperms. LOL.. Don't want him to think that I want to use a baby to tie him down. Actually had been thinking of drafting an Agreement so that I "free" him from all obligations to this baby and he can be at ease. I just want all my kids to have the same father and surname. I know silly...but biological clock is ticking and really have a yearning for a girl. Yup, no guarantees but .... He will only be responsible for the two boys. This third child will be truly my own?? Giving myself a couple of weeks to see if I still have this yearning .....
As for H, really have given up on him. Don't know what else to say about this man. He said that he's going to China but I don't think so... Don't really know what to believe about this man anymore. Oh well...I will survive.
Yes, things are okay with me...really. Had brunch with a girlfriend and did a little shopping. Had a nap and going to a company dinner tonight. So Saturday is pretty full.
Tomorrow, Sunday...will be off for a buffet brunch with family... so, will be good too.
