KDK/Kismet/Hellkat - Hiya. Thanks for checking up on me. I know it is soooooo tiring to keep hearing that he is sorting it out soon. And the same question crops up. How soon is soon? Did ask him "I am gonna have to wait till you are 70, am I? When you are old and grey and aching here and there and needing someone to take care of you???". Another time I asked "When? Till I am 50?". Idiot replied "Nope, nope 50. Maybe 45?" Gawd!! The nerve of him??? Really don't know what the skanks have...
Anyway, will try to see how the "conselling" bit goes. I will sort of subtly bring it up when I am over in Country X.
eep the chin up, hopefully the five days in country X will give you some distance from your sitch Not distance..more of plunging into the sitch!!!
knowing he is still lying and seeing ow. This part is quite difficult I have to say....
Any DBing counsellors over there? Absolutely none, unfortunately...have to see where I could find a pro-marriage counsellor.
except chin up Yes I am. Yes I am...
Journalling... Tuesday... Some teleconvo with H. Nothing much except about our financials and his temp position blah blah blah. Then I had a chat with a girlfriend. SOmewhat the idea of H telling that "he will sort it out" is just to keep ppl mouth's shut. Don't know why...but I texted him. H: In a way, it's true...but I also hope to resolve the matter eitehr way. Now go to sleep. I am working. Me: So all this while, you were bullshitting me?? You don't wanna tell the boys and you don't wanna give her up. We are gonna be stuck in this sitch for how long?
Then H called. We had a convo about this. SOme of our convo..not in order. H: It's not bullshit. It's real [censored]!!! Either way, I will resolve this one way or other. I will do it soon. Me: How soon is soon? H: Maybe a few weeks to a month.. Me: You see?? You asked for more and more time. How much time??? H: I said I will sort it out. Either this way or that, I will sort it out soon. Me: You keep giving me false hope and promises. At this moment, you still undecided. Aren't you? H: As I said, for all intent and purposes, it's over between us and you wait for the papers. Me: Then I won't be going over on Saturday then. H: No. No..you are coming over. Me: If I am waiting for papers..why would I want to come over?? H: I ask you to act like it's over between us. Not FEEL it. Me: Huh? Anyway, if it's the end of us. Then we have to stop talking with each other ...unless its about the boys. H: Yeah. If that's what you want. I won't contact you until either I've sort it out with her or I send you the papers. ...You are still coming over right? Me: Makes no sense. Anyway, your friend gave me a lawyer's number. Says she's pretty good. SHe charges $$$ though. Think I will go talk to her. H: No. No...don't waste the money. You only talk to her when you receive my letter. Besides, I don't have any lawyer now. Err...you still coming over this Saturday, right?
Basically, our convo was all over the place. More of a jokey way. SOmetimes I think we are such a weird weird couple!!!! The last thing I said to him was to go find a masseuse that makes house calls while I am there. Again...we do have a weird R.
