KDK ...Thanks for dropping by. Yes, I think the WAS will never really fully understand what we go through. They only think about themselves...such selfishness!!
Journalling... Friday... Major drama on Friday night...with H screaming at me and me crying in front of the kids. I was really really upset with H as he said "If you were nicer, cared more about the family and be more patient, I would have been back to the family earlier. But instead you kept pushing and pushing!!".
Can you imagine how upset I was? Other things that he said "I INVITED you over, and we could be happy, but instead you threw away things, kept her shoes and god knows what!"... again it's all my fault.
I couldn't take it and ended the call abruptly, and he did call and call again. I ignored the calls. But boys were still awake, and S8 finally took one of the calls. He actually told the father that "Mommy slept already!"... How sweet of him. He knew that I was upset and didn't want to talk to H. But I had to explain to him why I didn't want to speak to daddy...told him that sometimes adults are angry and there is no point of screaming at each other over the phone, so might as well both ppl calm down first.
Saturday... Still ignored H's calls. When I get any calls, I quickly pass the line to the boys. H called twice in the morning and also in the afternoon. Boys and I went out for pancakes, and H called again...this was very funny. S8 said "mommy has gone to the toilet"...then he passed the line to S6 and he said "actually, mommy didn't come. Grandma took us". I was laughing like crazy with their antics. Then S8 was like "hey...I said she went to the toilet"...then S6 said "oh..no..she went to the toilet".
WIth their recent "lies"...I had to explain to them that these are called "white lies" vs. "real bad lies" which they understood. In the night, S8 was talking to H and then think H asked for me and silly S8 asked "should I tell him a white lie?" which H definitely could hear..and H actually told S8 "Nevermind..just pass the phone to your brother.".
Sunday... Went for breakfast...and then did some banking. Explained to boys when I need to pay the mortgage etc etc. H called and again, let the boys just talk to him. After that, bought a lottery ticket and jokingly told S8 "If mommy wins this, I will bring you to Disneyland during the school holidays..". S8 looked at me and said "No mom. We pay the bank first!". I am sooooo proud of my boy!!
Then my mom took the boys to her home..had to travel out of state for work. On the way, spoke to my mentor... then my SIL called...and after that, I decided to stop my silent treatment on H. I subtly started the contact by sending him a text to tell him that boys are over with my mom. Then he did reply my text.
Did call me in the evening.... first thing he said was "boys are not here..there's no one to pass the phone to. LOL ". Later, more texts between us. I did ask him if we are going to Country X (boys and I) during school holidays. He replied yes...and to ask his mom to come along. Few text exchanges...and he said he will do the booking. So will see....
Monday... H did text and call me. So... will see what happens..
Oh...I think my mood really does get affected by my PMS. I realised my emotions are really haywire few days back... Now I am back to my DBING self...
