Kismet/VJ/Hellkat - Hiya guys...thanks for dropping by. Was a bit of a yoyo yesterday...will elaborate below... basically, on the surface, H looks and acts kinda normal. But beneath..I really don't know. I am quite confused...but since am not thinking well, I will continue to be nice and act dumb and DBING?? Let me journal..

Sunday...
H came back to the house early in the morning. Yes..he made it back for S6's birthday. And left when the party ended. Seemingly ...looks like such a good daddy to come back just for the son's birthday. BUT...a big BUT... See Tuesday...

He called me on Sunday night...and then asked "err...should I put her stuff away? Don't want you to come over and see the stuff and get angry..". At first, I said "Yes" then I said "No..no..let me see what she has there"..... this went on abit and then we talked about all sorts of stuff... then towards the end, he sounded upset and i wanted to end the call...then he sort of said "no. I am not angry blah blah blah"...

Oh... spoke to my MIL and she said that H told SIL2 that he is going "back to the family". Well, I guessed the positive here amongst all the chaos is that he is telling ppl that...and now is to really make it happen.

Monday..
AM went to work, then headed off to the airport to catch my flight to Country X. Arrived. The driver picked me up and then off to the office to pick H up. Were supposed to go out for dinner. But then H changed his mind, and suggest that we go back and grill some chicken. We went to the supermarket to pick some stuff up, and then headed back. Put the chicken in the oven...and then headed off for our session . Then we had dinner, watched a little bit of tv and then went to bed. (BTW, during the TV watching.... H was out in the terrace a LOT! Smoking and on the phone....No..didn't query him. I just let it be)

Tuesday..
H headed off work early in the morning. Had about a 5 minute chat before he left. Basically, a whole mixture of stuff... told me to go have a look at the schools for the boys, but at the same time, using IFs a lot. As in "IF you and the boys move over blah blah ". He is still soooooo attached to this woman. I got abit teary eyed, and said "maybe you want us to just leave you alone, and you don't have to bother about us ever". To which he replied "No. It has to come from me". And he left for work.

Anyway, after he left the house, I was off snooping!! Yes! Bad bad yoyo!!! Found that he has stuffed some of my stuff away in the store (ow may see that I have been around?) but didn't really do all a good job. Though some of hair clips, vitamins and shoes were PUT AWAY in the store, some of my facial masks, parfume, creams were in the bathroom. Some of my clothes in the cupboard. (oh..deliberately left them there) So I am sure that ow must have seen it when she was here recently...according to the driver about 2 weeks back....with her whole gang of family! (Again...what is with these low lifes????) She also had some of her makeup and shoes around the place. Low life skank she is!! (Oh..I am sure she must have "discovered" some of her missing underwear when she was here!!!

Anyway, my snooping also yielded the fact that H actually was back in our home country on Friday the 17th of Feb. But he didn't even come home then nor on Saturday. He told me he was sick blah blah blah. So, this bit about coming back for S6's party was all a lie. Yup. what a bloody f*cking liar!!! I was fuming !!! On top of that, many times that he was back, he only stayed one night at home, i.e. the Saturday nights.. whereby he actually came home on Fridays and leaving on Mondays. So, loads of times he has been lying and lying and lying. WHY?? WHY?? This really tells me that he wants to have us and ow. I was really really fuming... I also found out that he applied for his ID card with HER home address. WHy would he do that if he is not planning on a long term R with her??? called my mom for advice but she had none. I was pacing up and down...but then kept calm...and thought to myself..okay..ACT to win an OSCAR!!! So, I went out to visit the schools in the city. (But I did call up my mentor and told him what I found out. His advice? To act dumb and pretended that I didn't find anything...and to go along with the school visits...)

WIth the visits to the schools, I periodically updating him via text messages. Basically, the problem is not with the school (Previously, H was using the excuse of "no vacancy" or "wrong timing" about the admissions), it is with H...him and his yoyo-ing not sure what he wants. Well, H was supposed to have lunch with me...but then got tied up with work, so had lunch on my own. Then went to do my nails (both pedi and mani) and also had a cream treatment on my hair! Then off to pick H up from work. He was very chirpy and inquired about my day blah blah blah. We went for dinner...wanted to wine and dine but the place was closed. SO ended up in a sort of pirates den with bbq stuff...which is okay. (I tell you, if it's not for my snooping, really cannot tell that this is an @sshole with a capital A and one big b@stard!!! He is still soooo helpful... He actually cut up my food! offered to peel my prawns!) Anyway, we talked a bit..and I did ask him "actually, who is the ow? is it me or her? My things are hidden, and hers are all over the place.." Idiot answered "well, actually you two are the ow...there's another one..LOL". Don't you think he is an @ss??? I also asked "What is your intention? Don't get angry..but someone saw you at the airport on Friday"...(yup, a lie on my side)... he was looking away a lot..and I said "hey, can you look at me? Maybe I should change places" and @sshole answered " I can look at you.. I am good. I can still lie looking at you...just can't manage to lie to the customer. Tried today and they told me not to bullsh!t" Basically, he said "I did tell her that I want to go back to the family. But we are still in contact". Can't really remember what else..didn't really touch on the topic much. I did ask him "how long? and suddenly you gonna tell me that she is pregnant?"
H: Hai.. you have been saying that for so long, if that is true, would have delivered long time.
Me; how I know? Maybe she will entrap you since you said that you've told her that you wanna go back to the family? So, it was an okay pleasant evening. No shouting matches so far.. so, is good right?

Went home, showered, had another session . Watched a bit of tv, me doing my sudoku. H ate supper and again out in the terrace smoking, talking on the phone... Nope, didn't query. Then went to bed.

This morning (Wed)
H went off to work...and I asked if it was gonna be a long day... but he will try to have lunch with me today. BTW, I am going home today...so if he doesn't see me for lunch, then I won't see him for awhile...Before he left, did ask him again as to what he wants to do with the school holidays..he said "come over"..and then said "ask my mom if she wants to come"...so I guessed it is a positive? He asked ..."do you want me to book or you do it?" ...to which I said that I'll do it..(just in case that he takes his own sweet time and doesn't do it on time and we end up with no seats...)

So...that's it...will see if he has lunch with me.

Have done a few notti things....poured ow's nail polish away. Left one bottle intact (that's because I can't open the cover)...threw her NEW lipstick and lipliner. (Oh..she did look for some of her things... I asked H "what did you do with my clips? And he said "Don't know. Actually, she also asked me where her stuff were" HA HA HA...) Gonna go see what else I can throw!!!!

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