Quote: Frank must be gettin some tonight! Go Frank!
No, not really. Did get some this morning though. It was very 'normal' compared to the previous times, and fun of course. No crying, which was good. We even looked each other in the eyes.
I was gone all day on business and other stuff. Didn't get home till 10:45. W was up still watching TV. I don't know if she was 'waiting up' for me but she was wearing her pajamas and looked really tired. A month ago she WOULD have been in bed by the time I got home so I will give myself comfort thinking that she was waiting for me. We've spent the last 2 nites watching TV together so maybe it's a new 'habit'.
We talked for a couple minutes, then she gave me a nice hug and went to bed, which is what I'm about to do too...I'm beat.
I saw my Counselor today for a few minutes after D10 had her session with her. She said something interesting to me which was that she has been 'consistent' in her message to W and to me. I asked her what she meant by that and she said "Saying 'I love you' to someone is just speaking the words. I've told you and her that it's more important to do the actions to show someone they are loved. Then when you say it, the words have meaning."
And she said again to "keep doing what you're doing for another month."
Ok, I have to stay in limbo for another month. I can do that since I AM getting some affection, which is nice. C also said somethng to me the other day that was interesting. She said that W didn't need to hear me say "Don't worry, you're safe" when I am holding her when she's crying and hurting. W told her that she always feels safe with me, and doesn't like me to say that to her.
So that's a good step. She feels safe with me, that was a big issue since she hasn't felt very safe for a few years since I was checked out.
So, it's slow and there's no guarantee how it will turn out but it's better than it was. At least now I have a fighting chance.
