continuing with mothers visit. I came fhome from being at my office and happened to goupstairs to my room to get something. W met me at the bedroom door (inside the bedroom) asked me a couple questins, then put her arms around me giving me a bug hug. I actually think she did this because SHE needed to know I was still there. I've been practicing 'neutral' all day.
We went out to dinner and she had some wine. When we got home she would say stuff and give me 'knowing' looks. I would look at he Mom's eyes and I coul dsense the puzzlement. She was lightly flirting and still has her own room, and asked me to rub her shoulders. Mom and Grandma must be totally boggled by this.
I wonder if they will say something to her?
After they left, W asked me if I wanted to come into her room and 'talk'. Do I did, we sat on her bed facing each other. she asked me if I had any burnng issues, I said no. I asked her what was on her mind and she said 'nothing'.
I had on my mind 'why the heck isn't she saying I Love You to me yet?' But kept quiet.
She had sore shoulders so I sat agast the wall she in front of me, and massaged her neck shoulders. She moaned and groaned.
Then she says 'Can I do anything for you, like massage your back.' I thought about it and said "I'd really like to lie quietly in your bed and snuggle."
She said 'ok' and lay down next to me with her back to me. She pulls me over to her, put my lag oveer her waist, and her legs intertwined with the other. The weird part was we were looking at each other and talking. She didn't look like she had any emotions at all.
Well, we held each other for about 20 minutes. Then it was time for her to 'get under the covers and go to sleep.
So I stood up and she stayed laying there. She talked for a moment, and we were in the dark. I looked down at her face in the dark and then kneeled next to her bed. I leaned forward and kissed her on the lips. Suprisingly she didn't just give me a smack, she returned the kiss.
This was the first time I kissed her. Previous 'kissing' was during our 'friend sex'. This was a small risk but she responded.
So the 'no feelings' that were seen during th cuddle wee pretty annoying. t's amazing how they can turn off feelings.
