Well, it's THE day and I am going to stay around on the board for most of it to keep my sanity.
I don't feel like I was 'calm and collected', but crazy out of control most of the time. I guess around HER I was as stable as possible while it was tearing me up. Sometimes I don't know how I made it this far, especially during the holidays. I think what has helped me MOST is the people on this board who took an interest in supporting me. I know I've been a little quiet on others threads the past few weeks but, as I said, last couple weeks were so hard and my cup was EMPTY as W used it all up.
I feel the same way. On my thread last night I took a little heat for venting but you know what, it's really hard to convey tone and the nuances of things that happen in our sitches (not to mention forgetting key things that are said or done). I may sound like a basket case here, but I'm sure it confounds my W that I am really calm and even tempered most of the time in front of her. It is a . I owe that to you and the others here who help me daily. Thank you for that. I think you do a really great job of giving us complete information and putting in in context. It makes it really easy to offer you advice. I am glad to have helped. You are doing great and I am so happy to read good things about you and your W. I continue to pray for you.
I said some really poorly thought out things a couple weeks ago to 'totallymessedup' and realized that I could no longer help anyone else because I had nothing left to give and wasn't thinking straight. So I've been focusing on myself since then.
Wow. I am named as a witness to the crime.lol. I remember that and it was not you writing. I recognized that and if you remember my response, I did not take it to heart. I know Frank when I hear him. That might as well been a stranger.
Take care today Frank and really revel in where your heart is right now.
