Well folks,

I see there are some new posters since I last visited. Welcome all to the club that no one really wants to belong to. There support and much wisdom to be had here.

I see Wildeman has departed for other pastures and good luck to him.

Hello honey, how is little pot doing? I see you, GEL and the NOPS are being as thought provoking as ever. And what would the BB be without Cemar? Be still my beating heart if you ever change Ce. Thanks for hangin in there with me Chrissy and Karen. I know I have been a stealth bb member for some months.

If I forgot anyone, don't despair, I'm just beginning to catch up on all of your stories.

I am just putting my toes back in the pool. After the horrible comments my H made re: my father in law over the summer, I just lost my way. I think I am ready to start again.

I have made some small steps in the direction of repairing the what I deemed irrevocably broken and seeing things from H's POV. He has made some small steps in the same direction (stayed home and watched the Super Bowl with me instead of hanging at the bar with his marriage challenged friend).

I've been thinking about all the romantic gestures he has showered on me over the years. H wanted to wear a top hat and tails at our wedding (would have, but couldn't locate a white top hat). Builds fires in the fireplace for me, brings me flowers for no reason, remembers that "Moondance" is one of my favorite songs, calls every day just to see what is going on, and so many more little things I need to acknowledge with more than a passing that's great.

The catalyst for my return to the growth I began to enjoy last summer is a movie I recently saw called "What the (Bleep) Do We Know?". It has changed my way of thinking. I listed the web site in a previous post. I am doing further reserach into some of the intriguing concepts presented in the film.

I am rereading PM and following up with Undefended Love.
I hope to catch some things I missed on the first run through.

Cinema- thinking things may be looking up.


I don't mind the sun sometime The images it shows I can taste you on my lips And smell you in my clothes Cinnamon and Sugar And softly spoken lies You never know just how you look Through someone elses eyes BHS-"Pepper"