Got kinda interupted during the last update, see if I can get my thoughts back..... nope, gone!

Made spaghetti this weekend, commented that it has 0 cholesterol, being I should be paying attention to that. H says yeah, it might be good for your heart but it goes right to your hips. Well, I can't be offended I suppose if he is right. Take it as one of those 'clues' of things that bother him. I'm tall enough, it's just my portions are too generous.

We had a good enough weekend, more conversation and spent time together than I remember in a while, I pursued enough that I expect a retreat from H again. You'd be proud of me Opti! I'm not a good DB'r. Not trying or wanting to be mean or nasty, but I gotta start saying something....a little at a time. Time to go with my gut again.

Another juggling act - Truck insurance is due, I'm changing companies due to mucho increaso in premiums from big wreck and H's speeding ticket in 2005. Insurance agent advised a new company. Usually I just pay it, but I told H when it was changing, when it's due, and tonight I asked for a check for his portion (which is the larger part). He said not tonight, maybe in a couple days. Ok. Also have the farm insurance due this month, more juggling. But, yes! I AM going on my trip! (call me irresponsible, I'll start posting in MLC forum) Honest though, by the time we all get done splitting expenses, and imposing on sis!, it should be pretty economical.

Speaking of tonight, H was here when I got home from work in town. Wow! he was working downstairs on an order that has to get out this week. Right there in almost the middle of the day. Well, almost 4pm, middle of my day. Just makes me wonder where he is all those other days that he's not home until 7pm or 8pm. His issue is to face himself in the mirror.

When you get all you want and you struggle for self,
and the world makes you king for a day,
then go to the mirror and look at yourself
and see what that man has to say.
For it isn't your mother, your father or wife
whose judgement upon you must pass,
but the man, whose verdict counts most in your life
is the one staring back from the glass.
He's the fellow to please,
never mind all the rest.
For he's with you right to the end,
and you've passed your most difficult test
if the man in the glass is your friend.
You can fool the whole world,
down the highway of years,
and take pats on the back as you pass.
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
if you've cheated the man in the glass.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.