Well, I can't even imagine the frustration you have had living with your H. I know, obviously, there is a good person in there because you married him to begin with. But, the level of bull headedness and ability to keep it up for years at a time, is staggering.
You must have some of that too since you've been at this so long.
For good or bad, I'm glad you are feeling ready to find some direction in your M. I have no idea what the right DB tactic is, or if there even is one. But, there has to be some sense of relief in there with all the pain.
And who knows...maybe he is trying to call your bluff. And we'll see what he does when he finds out you aren't bluffing.
What I really want to know is how have you prepared yourself to go forward with yourlife assuming H decides not to go forward with you? Have you made financial plans and plans for the farm? I hope you have a plan to get that happiness back you had when you were "between marriages" and living your dreams.
I know you have rough roads ahead. I Hope you have a GOOD day today!