Opti – I haven’t gone back for a while, but I do look at the calendar journal I’ve kept for a couple of years. From looking at that, I see a year ago we were a lot closer than we are now. Have you gone thru my threads? If you have, tell me what you see.
W2S – we are in the same house, and opinions differ on whether that is good or not. I’ve always felt it was best for us, but maybe not. It is irrelevant really though, because it’s history that can’t be changed. And, H has stated to me that me, the place, the livestock – none of that is enough to hold him at home. In fact, years ago before any of these recent events of 2 ½ years, he told me he was looking for a place to live when he came here. Pretty romantic guy, isn’t he? I will try to consider it progress, thanks.
A14 – the ‘busted’ look, contact with OW, he had his glasses on and was just slipping his phone back in his pocket. No proof, just speculation, but I’ve seen it before. Doesn’t matter. A few hours later he left for a couple hours.
The rental place – I watched his face as H read the message last night. His face turned red, but he ignored it, and asked about some of the other messages. We talked about that business, and as he was getting ready to leave again, I asked him about the place for rent, who he knew looking for a place or was it him? He said he didn’t know why they would be contacting him, he only offered to help them with some other items, but he didn’t have a very good mask on his face as he said this. As this jogged my memory, I do know this place was for sale for big bucks for not much of a place (makes my place look like a palace ), H had come home a while ago and told me these friends were moving and sold horses, etc. What I recall is that was around last fall, when he was ‘keeping an eye out’, and I think he left feelers out about renting it. What’s odd to me though is that they used the home phone instead of his cell phone, but that could be a slip up by them or his way of giving ME a wake up call. I don’t know, all speculation, and he denies any knowledge of why there would be two phone calls to him about renting it. However, it does give an opportunity for me to bring up more conversation…it’s time to start talking again. Just like last week, a spot of conversation about what is happening in the R and M, and even if it’s not the answers I want to hear, my shoulders start coming back up. Wish me luck!
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
), H had come home a while ago and told me these friends were moving and sold horses, etc. What I recall is that was around last fall, when he was ‘keeping an eye out’, and I think he left feelers out about renting it. What’s odd to me though is that they used the home phone instead of his cell phone, but that could be a slip up by them or his way of giving ME a wake up call. I don’t know, all speculation, and he denies any knowledge of why there would be two phone calls to him about renting it. However, it does give an opportunity for me to bring up more conversation…it’s time to start talking again. Just like last week, a spot of conversation about what is happening in the R and M, and even if it’s not the answers I want to hear, my shoulders start coming back up. Wish me luck! 
