Very pretty this morning, fresh soft snow. And I am so lonely, geez, it hurts. Just a simple hug would go such a long ways.....no, I won't trap him into one.

c1t - If I wanted to proceed with a D, then I would issue an ultimatum, and stick to it. He would be gone in an instant. I am 99.99999% sure of that.

My night last night, I got 'caught'. I had some old record albums playing, and H came home a little earlier than he has been, I didn't shut it down, and I didn't quit croaking along, I kept doing what I was doing. I said hi, and he did, but his face looked so bad last night, I felt sad for him. I made a few light remarks and jokes, and he was okay, but that was about it for the night. He laid down on the couch pretty early, and a little later I went to bed as well. We both had a tough night, he was up at least 3 or 4 times that I was aware of, lights on, in and out of the house, not sure what was going on with him. This morning we didn't talk about, I would be surprised if we had. I did ask him to send me a phone number for a lady I need to contact, and he has txtd me twice with her home and work numbers already this morning.

Something else struck me this week, when I LOOKED at a past picture of me - I looked GOOD in that picture, and ironically, my hair style is in process of returning to that style again, I hope my facial expression follows too. Man, I sure looked happy! I am playing old record albums, from a time that I liked. I am somewhat going back to who I was, the woman who I was before I let H consume me. It's not all so bad. I also sent H a schedule I have set up for a few activities at our place, thru October. That's a long ways away when you live your life day by day. He didn't respond, but he sent me an email about something else coming up. It struck me odd last night, we sit 10 feet apart in the same house, and we communicate by email. How is that?

Lots of stuff going on over the next days, GAL to stay busy, some with H, most of it not.

Funny day full of stories going around at work today. Cool! Still smiling about something!

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.