I got no cyber daggers for you. Although, I'm sure someone will come along and point out all the REALLY GREAT positives in your post. I'm just too lazy right now, and they are pretty obvious, so you should already be focusing on them, right?
But, I do want to highlight the whole feeling-alive-again feeling you're talking about. Yeah for you!!!! As confusing as everything else is, atleast you know that much you are handling well, right? Maybe you'll figure the stuff with H out and maybe you won't. But, you are alive again, so hang on to that!
