But do you beat yourself up about it

I've stopped 2nd guessing myself. It takes too much energy. I do a lot of up front thinking before I do something and if it blows up in face, then I try to learn from it for next time.

do you focus on the fact that it never should have happened in the first place?!

No, it should have never happened in the first place. I'm not sure how it could have been prevented.

I am absolutely convinced that W is an MLC'er. Everything is about her and her happiness. W has stated "I'll do what I want, when I want, with whom I want." During last night's phone call she asked if it ever occurred to me that DD's wanted to stay there during the week. I said that I asked each of the girls what they wanted and D15 said the she didn't want to stay there on Tue PM. W then asked D15, "Why didn't you ever tell me that you didn't want to stay here?" I get the feeling that W didn't ask if DD's wanted to stay there she just said, Here's what I want, but this is just my conjecture.

When I get some time, I'm going to move over to the MLC forum. I'll post a link here so you can find me.

How are you feeling right now?
Tired. I slept from 11 to 4. 2nd night in a row. D14 had a nightmare the night before, woke me at 4. She gets them when she feels stress. D14 went back to sleep, I didn't.