Venting / Journaling

Today has been one of those days.

It's 3PM and I'm tired already. This past Wed WAW wrote to say that she "has honored my request long enough" and now DD's will be sleeping over at her apt on Tue and Thu nights. I'm just so tired of the picking, the false accusations, the selfishness and the unabashed greed. The alien is in full bloom.

I keep wondering if WAW is an MLC'er. I've looked thru the 6 stages of a MLC and can see behaviors defined in stages 1 & 2 in her past. She's been in stage 3 for about 18 months now. She's been getting more and more angry with me over the taxes and custody sitch. She's written that she feels like DD's "just visit her" and "she's losing her connection to them". My initial reaction was "DUH!", you can't be doin' the hokey-pokey w/OM every night and still have the same R w/DD's that you once had.

Another item of interest is WAW's focus on her weight. 3 1/2 years ago when the mini-bomb dropped (I'm not happy, but I'm not leaving), WAW had been going to the gym for years, but really got strict on what she would eat (no candy, ice cream, eat only Cheerios or oatmeal for breakfast, lots of salad) and lost 5 or 7 lbs. She whitened her teeth. She looked awesome. DD's told me last week that they go running w/Mom when they are with her b/c she thinks she's getting fat. (She still looks great to me!)

So the "lost connection" and the "attention to physical appearance" in conjunction w/OM's mom wanting to see me has me wondering "What's up doc?".

I wonder if she is on the "bridge" leaving Replay heading toward Depression. Or is she starting a new cycle of Replay? Something is brewing my, "Spidey Senses Are Tingling".

I'm w/DD's this weekend. We're going out for breakfast tomorrow and they are going out for lunch and shopping w/my SIL on Sun. Hope to get out and enjoy the warm weather here in the Mid-Atlantic.

Peace,
~J