not to go all biblical on ya, but one thing we have to remember is that God gave man free will.
This is part of what has me in such a spin. On one hand we have this idea that God gave man free will, but those words are not exactly written in the Bible. I think that the notion of free will comes from Genesis and the garden of Eden story. I know that Bible verses can be taken out of context and used to prove points for which they were not intended, but in Matthew 7:7&8 Jesus, in the "Sermon on the Mount", says Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. This is the entire thought, there are no qualifiers, it doesn't say, that the person asking has to be asking for something for themselves, it doesn't say what we should be asking for or seeking.
If God created marriage and sees marriage as good, then why would he not honor his promise? Why would he not act in the world today? I'm supposed to teach a Sunday School class this week entitled "Promises to Live By", I don't know if I can do it, because I don't believe in "the promise" the way I used to. "The promise" was one that God heard our prayers and acted on them. After 3 1/2 years of asking, seeking and knocking, my wife had not been given back to me, I have not seen any positive change in her behavior and her heart and mind are still closed to me. I feel like either "the promise" was broken, or, more likely, we bent the words to mean what we wanted them to mean. God does not act to intervene in our lives.
On another note, I called L this morning. He told me his version of what happened on Friday and what will happen in the near future. I am angry and disgusted as to how the law handles these situations. If anyone ever thought the law cared about the truth or was fair, they are naive. I have to pay another L and go to parenting class to learn how to be a divorced parent. I have zero interest in doing either of these things. What I want to do is instead of spending $ on another L is spend the $ on MC and learn how WAW & I can be better H & W so that we can parent our children together. It's just insane. What ever happened to Spike Lee's notion of Doing the Right Thing?
Later WAW sent an email saying that I didn't care about DD's feelings b/c I didn't wait around for 3 1/2 hours for the meeting to start. In my reply, I . . . I . . . I. OK, I'll confess it. (Humbly) Bless me Michelle for I have backslid. I will say three validations and give up criticizing for Lent.
And my venting for this evening is finished.
Maybe the women's Olympic half-pipe will get my mind off of things.
