Her language? Do you mean as in Venusian or Martian? I've stated my simple needs numerous times, both in writing and in person. I'm not CONSTANTLY doing these things. I'm a touchy-feely person. I like to make people feel good. She's sees the MD every 3 mo. but I know she hasn't brought up any of these depression issues that your referring to or libido issues. Actually I've been on an antidepressant!!! Being user transparent I've frequently pictured myself using a rifle on myself. No I don't constantly pressure her. It was her idea to start walking and then to stop. I got up when she did, 5am. As you read in my post she sent me an email re an article on Diabetes and it's affects. She sent me the email that said she needs to get started on exercise ASAP. AND YOU KNOW THAT I THINK SHE DOESN'T LIKE THE WAY I AM, I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!! I don't get promotions, I don't have colleagues etc. I don't even get a good-bye kiss in the morning. I haven't presssured her about anything all these years, just infrequently for about 7 months. She's been this way for about 13 years. What's worse is that in the past few days she has made some small attempts to hold my hand or just cuddle in bed .... but I really , for the first time, feel an aversion to her touch !! I don't find the need to touch her either !! The words I love you feel hollow for me to utter. Is that the "pressure" release she needed that you're alluding to.... that I disconnect myself from having any feelings and make her user transparent to me! Anyway it's now 2:37 am maybe I'm finally done with being lost until 3 1/2 hrs from now, when it all starts over again.... something like that "Groundhog Day" movie!!! AAHHH why wake-up just to feel like this again for another day !! TTFN
