I really hate today. This is going to be very difficult for me - watching my kids leave with their father who currently thinks being a part-time dad is better for them than trying to repair things with mommy.
I hope I can keep up a brave front while he's here. I've got my outfit planned, lol - nothing overly sexy, just new stuff he hasn't seen me in. Not that I plan on going anywhere until late this afternoon, yet if he asks I'm going to say I have a few errands to run.
I'm thinking about going to mass this afternoon. I haven't been in probably 10 years. Don't ask. Excuses, lack of faith - whatever, has kept me from going. However I've been wanting go back on a regular basis for about 7 years. No excuses left now.
OK...he just IM'd me:
SO [9:57 A.M.]: ?
Auto response from ME [9:57 A.M.]: I am away from my computer right now.
ME [9:58 A.M.]: hey
ME [9:58 A.M.]: how are you
SO [9:58 A.M.]: ok. you?
ME [9:58 A.M.]: OK, all things considered. What's up?
SO [9:59 A.M.]: stealing tghis wireless broadband fr somebody in this ncomplex
SO [9:59 A.M.]: whats wrong
SO [9:59 A.M.]: ?
ME [9:59 A.M.]: lol.
ME [9:59 A.M.]: nothing,
SO [10:00 A.M.]: yes there is
ME [10:01 A.M.]: no, I'm all right
SO [10:01 A.M.]: what are your plans today/nite?
ME [10:02 A.M.]: I've got some errands to run this afternoon. Little sh!t. Don't laugh - I may go to church at 5, then headed out w/ some friends.
ME [10:02 A.M.]: Maybe do some cleaning around here.
SO [10:03 A.M.]: barb?
ME [10:03 A.M.]: Yeah
SO [10:03 A.M.]: $XX good?
ME [10:03 A.M.]: Yes. Thanks. I know the truck needs gas; I'll also need some things from grocery store.
SO [10:04 A.M.]: ok, i gtg before mcDs cancells breakfast
ME [10:04 A.M.]: ok, SO
ME [10:04 A.M.]: see ya later
SO [10:04 A.M.]: I will let 2 and 3 sleep/nap before I leave w them today
ME [10:04 A.M.]: ?
SO [10:04 A.M.]: ok?
ME [10:05 A.M.]: here?
SO [10:05 A.M.]: yeah, they wont nap here
SO [10:05 A.M.]: or is that not good
SO [10:05 A.M.]: whatever
SO [10:05 A.M.]: ?
ME [10:06 A.M.]: It's ok...I didn't know, however it's ok
SO [10:06 A.M.]: OK
SO [10:06 A.M.]: SEE YA
ME [10:06 A.M.]: Maybe you can out the fan in the bathroom? LOL
ME [10:06 A.M.]: put
ME [10:06 A.M.]: or stop the water leaking in blue bath. I can put you to work around here! LOL, unless you had other things to do.
SO [10:06 A.M.]: GONNA BE A BIG PROJECT
ME [10:07 A.M.]: oh, ok
SO [10:07 A.M.]: gtg,
ME [10:07 A.M.]: ok
SO signed off at 10:07 A.M.
I'm putting this in because I'm doubting everything I do or say these days. Just wondering if I handled it ok. Also - he's coming here at noon, and now he says he wants the kids to nap first. They nap from about 12 to 3. So what does he need to still come here at 12 for? I'm not complaining, just don't understand - don't know if I should have told him not to come until 3 then. ANy thoughts?
And, if he didn't want them napping there, what about the whole night? ??? I'm wondering if I should suggest that he stay here with them and I will leave. Any suggestions on that?
