Am I the one living in the fantasy world? It seems as though everyone knows about what's going on....everyone knew he was going to move out...everyone knows about OW being significant in SO's life. Everyone but me. Why do I feel like such a fool? Why does he deny, lie, insist on downplaying her existence?
I can't even type "X"SO here on the board. Am I in some kind of denial? How do I wake up? Isn't that what he truly is? That's what everyone out 'there' knows it to be.
I don't know why I'm feeling so down today. I know, shake it off.
OK...to get to work: My "more of the same behaviors" and solutions: 1. Emotionally distancing myself from him - something I always did that he said was a problem. I always kept everything in until it exploding unconstructively Solution: Not sure how to handle this one with our R being as it is at the moment. ??
2. Sarcasm; his perception that I was being bitchy: Solution: Always maintain happy, upbeat mood in his presence and all interactions with him.
3. My inability to say "thank you" for both little and big things; my failure to compliment (seemed I always critiqued rather than praised); lack of appreciation; lack of respect for his work Solution: Since he seems to be a "WOA" and "AOS" type of guy, consistent yet, honest, truthful praise & admiration.
Don't ask me what I'm doing. Today I'm hurting bad for some reason. Taking a cold hard look at yourself is never easy.
