Well, so much for remaining calm & serene. I was thoroughly at fault for today's episode. SO never came home until approx 5 PM...I ended up losing it. Really losing it. The flowers he bought for the kids to give to me - I threw them at him and told him to give them to his girlfriend. And it got worse from there. Then he told me he was looking at apartments all day.
I think that I have lost it. I don't know why I behaved that way - like some obsessed psychopath. I don't think he could run out of here any faster tonight...and I don't really blame him when faced with the whacko that I was.
About 800 steps back tonight.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm unconsciously sabotaging myself.
