No, Whitelight, the R isn't like that. He won't do anything to my stuff. And yes - I agree, he very immature these days.
We had a long convo last night. A bunch of BS from him mixed in with a lot of eye-opening statements as well....he still refuses to admit he's involved with this girl. DUH! Anyway, I outlined my proposal to him, that is, I stay here until summer, going back to work, and putting the two little girls in daycare. I used guilt, re: upsetting the girls lives, to make my point. The truth is, HE's the one confused - HE should go. He seems to have agreed. For now.
I went through the newspaper and found a whole bunch of rentals and gave them to him. Told him I wanted something set by the time I got back from Florida. We'll see what happens. If I don't prompt him into this, he'll go on like this indefinitely. Something I can't live with anymore. I know, anti-DB; but it is the way I feel. I've been through so much, right now, I feel like the WAS - I see nothing, remember nothing but BAD. If we stand any chance at all, both of us need to take a stand back, get our heads clear, and take it from there.
And, it will be good for me. That's what I'm thinking. It has to be all about me & the girls now. And, when it comes to my girls, I'm a she-bear. And I told him that as well. It's bad enough the kids will lose their father, but I will not have them lose their home, my daughters school & activities, and everything else....not all at once. If, when summer comes, I decide I don't want to be here anymore, then the power is mine to move out. If he doesn't like it, too damned bad.
And, get the audacity, after our "talk", he even wanted me to sleep with him. Physically and otherwise. I refused. Nicely, but I still refused. He's got some serious mental issues right about now.
He kept going on about what, and with whom, I would be doing it, in Florida. Said he's gonna go nuts thinking about what I'm doing. I told him that it was his choice to end things with me and that my dating or being with others came with the territory. He said thinking about me with someone else makes him "suicidal". Says he can't stand the thought of losing me, blah, blah, blah. I'm rolling my eyes now, just thinking about this. I'm really starting to believe he's crazy.
So, today I'm calling local daycare centers, getting some things prepared for when I get back from my trip. Even if I have to take a disposa-job, lol, I've got to do something. The deal fell through at my old company, so that option is out. Right now, I really don't want anything too taxing on the brain....I'm thinking grocery store, something "easy", and something where, if I decide to move, I can quit without too much trouble. Just anything to get me out of the house, GAL, and make some money at the same time.
I told ya, I'm back in action and he better be ready.
