I think I've made up my mind to pack his suitcase and have it ready for him when he gets here. I just cannot make myself act "as if" today. Having him here is only going to fuel my resentment, anger and hurt and cause me to react negatively. Having him leave may not be the best choice, but today it's what "I" need. I feel like he's crossing my boundaries. Not sure yet though, I'm still thinking about it....although time is running short, he'll be here in about an hour.
Well, it may be too late, but I usually would refrain from making decisions that will impact you LONG after today, based on what you feel you need "today". Your feelings will ebb and flow. Do not buy into any of them offering you the key to salvation. If happiness were as easy as him being gone, then there would be a ton of happy folks around here. Do you see that? I don't. Please, gather yourself and maybe make this decision when you feel it's best for the long term, and you've really thought it through. I have been there. I am there many times a week, but I resist doing anything about it and I think I am glad so far. Please, take care and I wish you well.
