Be kind to yourself. Get better. You don't have to 'fix' yourself overnight. You cannot. You are learning something new.
The journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step.
Quote: No sweat right?
You sweat plenty walking a thousand miles. Buckets when you first start out. Then you get in shape, hit your stride, and you understand that the sweat is actually there to help keep you cool... there is rhyme and reason to it.
Hey. Got a great book for you to pick up when you are feeling better. It's called The Four Agreements, by Don Miguel Ruiz. Quick read, very simple, very profound.