W31, OM20

[RBinBR]

Thanks, Scooter. After two days of being dark, I'm feeling really good about myself. I've created a plan with specific goals, and I'm excited about areas of self-improvement and certain fun activities.

I've also realized that the last letter and email that I've sent her reflect a little anger over her latest deception. I'm know I'm not going to get her back by being angry, and I realize that if I want to appear attractive to W, I need to start valuing her and admiring her, as hard as that is.

I'm therefore going to force myself to write a list of the 20 things I like best about her (body parts don't count!), I'm going to pray for her in a much more in-depth manner (not just that she'll dump OM), I'm going to stop judging her (internally), and I'm actually going to write some love poetry for her (and keep it to myself for now).

I think those things will help me to continue to have a PMA and will prepare me to reconnect to her when I decide to resume contact.