Forgot to mention that my H and I ML again when he came over to fix my fence. Waht gets me is that we had some trouble in bed when we lived together...now he can't get enough.
I like that but I think in some respects I'm disrespecting myself. I LOVE ML with him and I LOVE that he wants me. However, I feel like crap afterwards and I feel that it keeps him from making a decision.
For now I will wait for H to contact me to hang out. If we hang out I will try my best to leave at a decent hour to come home by myself. I just hate rejecting him b/c I feel he won't want to hang out again...like I will be pushing him away.
How do I stop the spiral downward from this...? Any suggestions?
