Trust me all, I am world away from where I used to be, but this stuff still affects me a lot. I tried to call W to tell her me and the boys were heading out to meet her for lunch, per our plans. She has been at the gym for almost 1 1/2 hours and should have been done with her w/o long ago. She was only going to do light cardio. So she doesn't answer. She calls back about 15 min later saying that she expected me to call and just wanted to let me know she had one more station of weights to do and she was ready to go...and oh, by the way, could I just take the boys out to lunch because she wanted to return some things to a store out by the gym and meet us later at the mall. So I guess lunch with the OM is in order today. Either that or a quickie...er...oh...it's not physical...I forgot. Anyway, I am stewing but I will get a handle on it. Have to before I see her. Does she think I am stupid, or does she just not care? Actually I know the answer is neither, she just doesn't think about what I may be thinking. It's not about me...remember...(that was to myself). I am going to try and let this roll off but I find it hard with all the positive things going on. I am now starting to wonder if all that stuff is just a smoke screen to get me to be more complacent. I am distrusting a lot of things right now, but I think I have that right. If there are words to make me feel better, then I would love to hear them, if not, tis ok too.
