In light of what's happening now, and with this trip to Ireland now less than a month away, it seems like I have an opportunity to do a lot of good. My main goal is to resist ANY OM related stimuli that may elicit a strong reaction from me. I do NOT want to blow up and sabotage whatever may be going on here, and if she goes out this weekend, I could do just that. This will either be the best weekend of the past year, or my best DB weekend, one of the two, of this I am sure. I want to ask her if things are over between her and him, but I know that is asking for trouble. I feel like I am standing at a crossroads and I really want to take the right road.
On another note, I found the "day after" letter on my computer last night. You know, for someone who did not know much about validation and DB, it really wasn't that bad. Sure, I blamed and such, but the overall tone was that I understood where she was but did not agree at all with how she is choosing to handle it. The worst part was all the "I can't live without you" stuff at the end, which is all she remembers... Anyway, reading it, I was surprised that I did not beg very much. Not bad for a rookie.
