Thanks. I am not as sure as you are about the obstacles I will face. I am sure they are going to come, but I don't know about my ability to handle them. I want to handle them well, and that is a step. I want to be better in the face of adversity. I want to keep it together and not come here tonight, tomorrow or next week venting about being on a ledge. It is my choice to walk out on those ledges and some day I need to make the choice on my own to walk back in. I pray that my positive energy right now is real and not just because there is no OM being thrown in my face right now. My W just called (she's called twice this morning already) and said she's having breakfast with a couple girlfriends. She asked what I thought about her telling them the truth about what happened. I said I thought it would be good to talk to them but to think it through and really decide if she wants them to know. I would be lying if I said part of me suspects she is with him, but I don't know that. One more thing. The other day I noticed, when fixing her email for her (she asked me to) that she ordered something from Amazon. She never mentioned it and of course I jumped to conclusions that it was a gift for the OM. Turns out it was a CD she ordered for herself. She showed it to me and told me what made her order it. She did not know I saw the emailed receipt. Funny how we think we know something...
