Ok all. I finally got locked down. I started a new thread a few days ago but I am abandoning that one. Please come here for my updates.
Journaling
Tiny bit of news. My W just called for no real reason. She does not do that. I don't remember the last time she did that. She just wanted to tell me she was done at the gym and had lunch and was wondering if I thought she should go home or just wait to pick up the kids. ????? I talked with her about it for a few minutes and then I probably screwed up again. I had told her I might go out for coffee with a friend tonight at Barnes and Nobel. I told her nothing was confirmed. Well, during this call, she asked me when I was going. I said I didn't know if I was and that I did need to go to the bookstore anyway so I may just take the boys when I got home from work. She said ok. Then I asked her if she wanted to rent a movie tonight, to which she said she didn't know what was out but sure, maybe. I am just feeling a different vibe from her since last night. I know not to buy into it, or expect anything, but I think I am going to casually explore it. This was the first time in more than a week that I talked to her this time of day, when I am reasonably sure she meets with him. Small sign? Sure, maybe. Nothing? Sure, maybe. In any event, I am going to try to stay in my center place as to not get flattened when the next thing hits...and we all know it will...
